extraordinarily ordinary

I like change. I change my hair very often. It's been all sorts of colors, cuts, and style. I like to change my style, my decor, just the things I see. I like to try new foods and pick up fads. Part of who I am is just being ever changing.

The one thing that hasn't really changed about me is that I want to be loved and accepted for who I am. Who doesn't? I don't consider myself like Julia Roberts in Runaway Bride. haha.. I don't even like eggs all that much.

The most important love I have in my life is that love that God gives me. If I seek Him at every turn, I know that even my mistakes will turn out to be used by God. I've just recently figured out that I am a normal young adult. And I am ok with that. For the first time in my life...I am perfectly comfortable with being extraordinarily ordinary.

I hope that all of you out there in the world who aim to be different can realize that we are all insecure. We are all imperfect. And we are all beautiful in our imperfections and insecurities. Sometimes...to need someone is just as important as being needed. Feeling useful.

If we were perfect, we wouldn't need each other. right?

Life's Biggest Questions

I am 21, probably struggling with the same things that you are struggling with right now. None of us is so different than the other.. right? Well, I feel like I have a quality that few hold. I know I'm not the only one, but I don't know many others like me in this aspect. Except my mother.

I want to do everything. I want to do way too much with my life, but I can't help but want to do all of those things. You may be thinking that isn't so different from yourself, but have you settled on a major? When I ask that question, I am talking to the people who at least graduated in 007. (yes... double-oh-seven) Well? Most of you have at least narrowed it down to one university I'm sure. I, on the other hand, have been to a total of 4 universities AND I've attended 6 months of cosmetology school and quit. I STILL have no major, no degree, nothing that says I've learned anything. And I STILL don't know what I want to do with my life.

My father feels like I need a career that's going to support myself and my children if we get a divorce.. sounds like dad has a lot of faith in me huh? Well, guess what? I found a great guy who will take care of me and my kids if we have any-I'm sure of it. So, even though I am not entirely sure what I want to do with college. I know what will be important in my life in a couple years. Family. Love. etc..

so, does it really matter that I haven't found my niche? I have too many! I could be an art teacher, a coach, a radiologist, a cook.. anything! So, I am just going to follow my heart and my dreams and stop beating myself up so much about not knowing where I will be career wise in a couple years. I decided that I just don't have to know. And, that.. that makes me very happy.